This session is the true story of my personal struggles searching for sustainability in open source contribution, mental health, business and life after 15+ years of Drupal development, and how participating in Open Source software development has sustained me personally but has also created significant challenges.
It's about how, by getting over my fears and intense imposter syndrome and joining this community, I survived through what I hope to be the hardest parts of my life.
In February of 2012, I started working on this open source drupal development hosting thing I called DevShop. I've been a freelancer all my life, a constant software tinkerer always hoping to have a great idea that would create some kind of business.
I tried, over and over again over the years to do just that: to create a business that shared my heart and soul and belief that open source platforms are key to empowering and employing the world. At the same time, my attempts at building a family also failed, in a truly tragic fashion.
This talk is about surviving all of that, coming to terms with my own mental health, and keeping a professional life going. How the Drupal community has given me so much, including friends I would now consider family, and how being open about our own issues can help us all build better lives, just like it helps us build better websites.
This talk will include discussions of death & depression.